god im so bored i can just kill myself, omg im so emo, im an emo kid, non-conforming as can be ,you’d be non-conforming to if u look just like me so stop my breathing and slit my throat, i must be emo. Hell yeah. Urgh i so wanna live alone right now , i know ,i know , call me a selfish bitch but i just need “grace time” . Don’t get me wrong im a family person but i just feel like i had too much family time and need some grace time. Christ! i need a fag , a joint whatever , i just need something to make me go high so i can sleep with a smile on my face. Been having some sleepless nights lately, and urgh im so annoyed, i wanted to go out tmr to watch the fireworks at klcc tomorrow, but firstly dads here, he may not allow, more of a 10/80 % chance i can go, secondly becca hasn’t called, and if shes going probably i can go.
I was thinking i havent though of my new years resolution yet, and tomorrows the last day of 2007. I haven’t even done my O levels yet and im already thinking ahead. I so wanna go to lim kok wing after i have finished my A levels, yes i want to take it so stfu ! You aint gonna be paying for my bills and expense so save it. Yes i know its hard and im prolly gonna be pulling my hair out and regretting it later but who knows if i do manage to pass ill prolly be laughing your face chanting “i told you so”. and if i dont, well its worth a try. Anyhoo planning on doing my A levels at Help , i wanted to go Taylors but parents think i would be better off at Help , i dont wanna seem like a useless or clingy person but i wanna be with ma peeeeps ! im afraid of what college has in stored for me , i might be the loner geek in the corner with huge rimmed glasses and bad fashion sense or worse a drop out -gasp- . Sigh , well after my o levels im planning on getting a job at klcc , either Dome , California Pizza Kitchen , Chillis , Madam Kwan , well those are the restaurants i can think off at the mo . Yes i rather work in a restaurant then some boutique to be honest, cuz i get so annoyed when im like browsing and the sales person hovers around me, makes me feel uncomfortable and im sure many feels the same way especially if someone doesnt buy something. Hopefully dad would let me ,i mean nothing personal just i want to make my own dough. And yes how could i forget, my drivers license, woo , im on the road to adulthood, after my O levels though , then im on the road to adulthood.
Im bored, im so bored, someone talk to me, whys everyone one holiday? i wanna go out , i can’t wait till im 21 , legal access to clubs , oh yeah baby. Im such a whiner … fuck it !
xoxo